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day forty five

24 Sep

1. managed to clean the house before sister-in-law arrived

and believe me, i was cutting it pretty close. and don’t get me wrong, the house wasn’t all that bad, and to be honest, she probably wouldn’t have noticed, but i would have. and i care. so, while my husband went to the airport to get her, i managed to vacuum the whole apartment, scrub the kitchen floor, do the dishes, organize everything, and take a shower and get myself all ready. yes, i am amazing.

and yes, i also could have done it the day before. but i didn’t want to!

2. feeling comfortable with my sister-in-law

i’m sort of a freak, especially when it comes to people. i get really anxious and think that most people hate me. especially if they are important to me (like in-laws). i mean like really crazy, like panic attacks and babbling. and usually, once i’m in bed at night, alone, or with my husband, i cry because i am so embarrassed and at the same time, so worried about how i seemed in front of people. it’s very overwhelming.

but, today i felt pretty good. no panic attacks. only a little bit nervous, and we seemed to be okay. i’m now lying in bed, and i don’t even feel the need to painstakingly analyze every little thing i said and did.

i feel that for me, today was a great success in terms of my own personal crazy.

3. package!

my aunt sent me a care package today – or, i got it today and i LOVE me some care packages. it had some knitting goodies, my favorite lotion that i can’t get here, some burt’s bees tinted chapstick and some other fun stuff. very exciting, and very thankful.

day twenty

30 Aug

1. good dreams

i always used to have these amazingly long, drawn-out, recurring dreams that would involve some sort of espionage or revolution. i would have the same dream over and over, noticing new details like you would in a film, and even prequels and sequels to the original. it’s been awhile since i had a dream like that and i had one last night. i lay in bed for almost an hour with my eyes closed before i got up, just reminiscing about the dream. it was that good.

2. the smell of clean clothes

maybe it’s because i always did the laundry growing up as one of my main chores, but i find the smell of laundry quite comforting and i’m actually a little disappointed that the laundry room is in the basement because the smell and the heat don’t actually make it up here into our apartment. of course, i’m also just grateful for having a washer and a dryer because apparently, as i’ve discovered, that isn’t really standard here.

3. knitting

this is almost the same as being grateful for my aunt, who recently taught me how to knit. i’ve only completed a few things so far, but i really enjoy it. i liked it a bit more when i was home in california and had thursday night knitting group with my aunt. but, i still enjoy doing it and i love that i will always think of her and always be able to have that bond with her.