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day thirty eight

17 Sep

1. commitment

i’ve said random things lately (and always) about getting committed to various things, usually exercise and eating right. which lasts varying lengths of time from none at all to a few months. but this time feels different. my husband and i are both starting to eat better and cutting out the pizza and pasta and eating out that we both love so much (it’ll be good for our savings account as well). granted, today was the first day, but i really do feel that this time is sustainable. i can’t say what it is exactly that feels different, but i truly hope that i’m in touch with some sort of strength inside me. i’ve been unhappy about my health and fitness (and superficially, my body) for too long now. i’m sick of it.

i’m grateful for my husband for committing with me to get into shape, and i’m so happy that i’m taking it seriously. for the first time in a long time (sadly), at no point during the day did i feel too full. i felt content, but never that “oh my god, i ate too much” food-baby feeling, which frankly, is really not pleasant. so, i’m very grateful for myself making a commitment to myself.

2. autumn

this evening when we walked outside, for the first time i thought it smelled like autumn was coming. and though we haven’t really had a summer due to the rain and general greyness, i think i’m excited about autumn. spring here was so gorgeous and made me realize just how little i have experienced of seasons and i’m excited for the next one. though again, summer totally disappointed me, the spring amazed me and i have high hopes for both autumn and winter (though i’m also afraid of winter).

it should be said that my husband did not think that it smelled like autumn. in fact, he said that it just smelled like a fire, which led me to wonder about the season in california. october is fire season, really, so maybe i associate fire with autumn? regardless, i’m grateful for seasons and am looking forward to the next one.

3. midday lying down

it wasn’t quite a nap, but mid-clean, i lay down on the bed where my husband was laying and listening to the football game on the radio. i think i was trying to get him back up and cleaning, in theory. but he was too obsessed with the captain of his fantasy football (that’s “soccer” to us, only i’m not allowed to say that word in our home) scoring, or rather, not scoring. and somehow, we ended up just lying there together, sort of partially listening to the radio, partially cuddling and a bit just lying there doing nothing.

the window was open and there was a cool breeze coming in, but the house was still warm and the sun was out and it was just such a simple hour. we didn’t even talk that much (except for when one of the teams scored and it was not robin van persie), and it was just so relaxing and i’m so grateful to be able to feel that comfortable with another person and to have such a nice, lazy moment in the middle of the day. sometimes it’s the most normal things that are the most special, really.

day thirty seven

17 Sep

1. skype and my best friend!

my best friend just moved to new york and so we’ve both been dealing with a lot of transition: looking for jobs, settling in, getting used to our neighborhood, etc. though, i suppose i’ve been here for a bit in reality. regardless, we haven’t really been able to talk for awhile. she was traveling before they settled, and frankly, i’m not the best at staying in touch from so far away.

we finally talked today and it’s always so reassuring – partly just knowing someone likes me and thinks that i’m their favorite friend (besides their husband) and partly because it’s someone so cool! i was feeling down this morning, and yesterday, and though i still feel in essence the same, there’s a clearer space in my mind and my confidence is boosted a bit.

i’m grateful for her and for the effort she makes in staying in touch. and of course skype for letting us see each other and take walking tours of our new apartments, etc.

2. my shoes are safe

there was no rain scheduled for today and though i know that’s not how it really works, nature is on her own schedule, i checked two different weather sites and both said: sun. so, what do i do? i wear satin shoes. and what happens? it starts raining. (of course)

they're cute, aren't they! 🙂

but, the good news is, it only started to rain when i was about five minutes from the train station and then again just as i got home. so, my shoes are fine! there was a minute there when i was worried, but in the end, they were completely safe. phew.

3. our last pizza

james and i (once again) are making a commitment to eat healthy and we’re going at it a bit extreme at the beginning. as in, fruits, veggies, brown rice, fish… nothing else… so today as a “going away present” to ourselves, we made pizza with our lovely pizza stone.

i made a whole wheat crust that was pretty good and i used an entire can of black olives. that’s how good they are. granted, it was one of those half-cans (because that’s all i could find), but i would have used more and should have bought two. oh well. olives on my salad next.

anyway, i really do love pizza and it was just so yummy and i really love our pizza stone. BUT i’m going to love being in shape and losing that weight that i’ve been talking about for… well, too long to admit, really. so, i’m both grateful for pizza and that i won’t be eating it for awhile.